Conflicted

darling,

I am conflicted.

part of me is enjoying the building
anticipation
of kissing your full delicious lips in just four days

there is the almost pleasurable agony in the length and space between us that makes
the waiting
that much more intense
that sets my whole being into this burst of excitement

that I don’t have the heart to extinguish
yet there is the certainty
that the real thing tastes better than the dream
that the delay will make the wait like biting into eden

there is this immaculate hunger that insists on driving me closer to the finish
this push to cross a threshold that is just the beginning
knowing that this wanting for you is
bottomless

wanting the wanting to never end
but wanting the passion to begin!

I am conflicted.

xo

©ola hadi 2010